Hello everyone! Wow it's been a crazy start to the year for this girl... So aside from being super busy with the new magazine , writing my next book and raising three growing boys, I have been singing in the worship team at church. I would normally tell you that I thrive off chaos. Being busy keeps me motivated and although my organising and memory still suck! somehow everything generally works out and I get everything done.
Hardest thing about this life of craziness is that you just think things can't get any harder, I mean haven't I made it hard enough? WRONG!!!. I completely forgot about the human, emotional side of life. This year has been an eyeopener on so many levels. My relationship with my sibling came to, i'm hoping a brief halt. It was bone crushing to have discord between us and words spoken sliced through my heart.
What's crazy about it though is that a breakdown and harsh words can send you spiralling, before you know it you're replaying your past, others peoples actions and words cause you cry and you begin to fall further and further into despair.
You cry to God, asking why everyone is against you? How has this happened ? What have you done wrong? My goodness the list is endless. The hurt seeps out into other areas of your life and it feels as if everyone is attacking you. How do you come back from this ?
Find that one person you trust more than anything and be prepared to hear the truth. It's gonna sting and you may feel that their words were harsh or they just don't understand you.
I am lucky enough to have, so called person. The sweetest lioness you will ever come across, so loving and caring, but boy when you need to hear the truth, she will give it to you.
When my Lioness spoke to me she let me know, that it's okay to feel sad, she understood what I had been going through. She reminded me I had a decision to make, I could tuck tail and walk away from commitments, continue to stay in this funk I was in or to rise up, humble myself and honour those around me, pray for those who had hurt me and power on through the storm.
So what is my point? We sometimes get comfortable within ourselves, if we are sensitive, we generally hate confrontation so we keep the peace. If we are busy, we generally get so caught up in what we need to do, we forget to nurture relationships. If we are depressed, we actually tend to push our struggles aside and focus on others. These things become a comfort zone for us. It's what we have found works for us to keep steady and make it through the day, unharmed.
God, doesn't want us there! He pulls us out of our comfort zones, lets us face what we don't want to face. It hurts us but he knows it makes us stronger. Builds us up and as we push through this new territory, we come out feeling victorious, knowing that there is nothing, no hurts, bad words, disagreements that can keep us down. He makes us stronger each and overtime, building us up to be able to battle for his works.
My advice, is in those times os struggle or confusion, as hard as it is, turn to that person that is fierce with love and honesty and talk to them. Pray with them and be prepared to hear the truth. Because the Truth my friends will set you Free xoxo
Oh this made me cry. Because to be honest with you, I felt like I'd let you down. Like somehow I really wasn't there when you needed me. But I also know that God has got so much on your life that sometimes we have to be willing to take a huge risk - which I actually felt I did. I had to lean on the fact that we love each other and that our relationship was strong enough for me to be real and honest with you. I desperately wanted to tell you what you needed to hear and yet I chose to tell you what I thought God needed for you. I hated leaving you in that place of hurt because I wanted to take you out of there. But the honest truth is that I will only take you where I have been myself. And I will only do that because I adore you, because you are so unique and special that I desire you to be all that God intended you to be!! And in it all, no matter where life takes us, and no matter how many times I have to step way out of my own comfort zone to help you be the great person you are, I hope you know that it's only love that lets me do that. If I didn't, then I would have simply patted you on the back and given you a 'there there.' But I feel like I want to invest in you. I want to take the difficult journey I have traveled, turn around and help you with yours. We have a journey to go you and I, and it's more precious than silver and more valuable than gold. How blessed I am that I get to travel this journey of life with you. xx
ReplyDeleteThis is my Lioness all! And I treasure her beyond words. Like I said, if you have that person, then you are blessed. The thing about "Just an ordinary life' ( Go check out her blog!, is that we don't see each other all the time, we have our separate lives and commitments but I know that we are there for each other. My darling Lioness i'm gonna be straight... I wanted that there. there, gosh on some level I felt I needed it. But i'm strong and I always pick myself up. Do I feel alone at time? For sure. It's in those times that I find the true strength to curl myself up in God's arms and trust him with the journey ahead. You showed me that, I could stay down and cry about issues that had mounted or stand up, pull my shoulders back and take on the storm, through humbling myself. Love you for a lifetime, chick xoxo ( Gosh we express well through word huh? )
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